I typically do not eat breakfast. Most of the time it is because I am not hungry for the first few hours of the days. More often it is because I forgot while tending to the kids or dogs or other living beings in our house. Cameron wakes up starving and immediately cooks a large, calorie packed meal. Life is too constant for me to deal with something as trivial as eating.

Thankfully, many friends bring donuts to our house during the week. They check in on us and most questions to us revolve around Charlie and his health and his needs. He’s definitely the “neediest” so we aren’t bothered by this focused attention. I have a handful of friends that are gifted in asking questions and they venture to ask how we are doing. We? Well, I haven’t had much time to think about it. We, we are surviving. Continue Reading ›

The Second but Last Trimester

After learning that we were having identical twins which were not sharing the same amniotic sac, we nearly skipped out of the doctor’s office with glee. Morning sickness was tolerable and overall I felt pretty good. This continued for the next 4 weeks or so.

Despite dodging the “monoamniotic twin” scenario, identical twins get an extra dose of precaution with a second OBGYN to monitor the pregnancy. Around the 14th week, we began seeing a high-risk pregnancy doctor, also known as a maternal fetal medicine doctor (MFM). At one of the first appointments, we had a blood test done to detect genetic disorders and from those results we learned our twins were boys. We were so excited and almost immediately decided Twin A would be Jack and Twin B would be Charles or “Charlie”. Continue Reading ›

And then there were twins…

And so I bring us to the beginning of the hardest stage of our lives, except at the time we were blissfully ignorant.

In 2016, we celebrated our 10th anniversary with the purchase of a camper trailer and a few trips to state parks with the kids. It was absolutely glorious. In May, I finished a two year Bible training program with Denton Bible Church and was asked to return as a teacher in the fall. My dream in college was to teach Bible and after deciding not to finish my master’s degree at seminary, this was the answer to my hopes. Everything was neatly falling into place. We found out we were pregnant at the end of May and decided it was the crowning moment to such a perfect year. Continue Reading ›

“Beautiful are the ways of God if we allow him to use us as he wants.” 

-Mother Teresa

Get a Grip…or not?

Cameron and I have reached the point in our marriage that we skip over the niceties where one person tries to accommodate the other when it comes to picking out a restaurant or movie. If the permission is given, “You pick”, then the other person just does whatever they want. Years ago (ok, sometimes even now), we would say that and pretend like we were completely open to the other person’s choice. In the end, it was clear we were not happy and a fight would ensue. Giving over the reigns to food and entertainment is a huge sacrifice.

Years ago, I read this quote from Corrie Ten Boom: “Hold everything in your hands lightly, otherwise it hurts when God pries your fingers open.” It has stuck with me very much during this entire ordeal with the twins. Continue Reading ›